“Don’t it seem like, like I’m always there when it matters
But missing most of the other time, a terrible pattern
The rewards I see from working made me an addict
Theres way more people that want it than people that have it
I dont get it, I would hate to think I tricked ‘em
They fall victim to my system, guess I sure know how to pick ‘em
And I’m always her regret, yeah, I’m always her regret
And I always make it harder on whoever’s coming next
It goes up and down, it’s just up and down
She’s crying now but she’ll laugh again
Cause we on the rise and she here with us
In expensive shit, just keeps happening
She loves it, she stares at me like who does this
And we hold hands while I pray that she’s not the type to hold grudges
I’m wrong..” - Drake on Mr. Wrong
If this isn’t the truth then I don’t know what is. Also thats why Drake is a great artist in my eyes and hears. He speaks from emotions and know how to put it in words.
I just heard some of the realest things about relationship in my life this morning!! People are so deprived of real love. JL Ford says this so perfectly.
“When you don’t eat for a while, your stomach shrinks. When your stomach shrinks it only requires a little bit to fill it up. The same as our love tank. When you get into the deeper parts of relationship and there’s some things that are not happening, some times you want your love tank start to shrink. You’re hungry attention, affection, love and being thought of. When you get the smallest things of those, it fills you up. When they get one of those it makes you so happy, the smallest things. They deserve so much more, the whole table but are settling for bread crumbs. So you have to ask yourself do you deserve more than bread crumbs? if yes demand it”
The last thing he said that I couldn’t stop saying AMEN to
You can’t give the world to a person who is only ready for a city. You’ll flood them out. They’ll run, they won’t know what to do with it and a lot of time abuse it. I see this a lot with women, they give their all to the wrong person and in the end get hurt.
Should be writing a paper but I want to speak on something else. I’m so proud of myself of the steps I’ve taken to not repeat the same mistakes I did in the past. I can feel the changes within me. In my last relationship, I was in love I jumped right in head first. Nothing else mattered, he was my heaven on earth. He was exactly what I wanted at the time, so I won’t bad mouth him either. Mistakes on both parts was made but mine was costly. I lost myself.
I did everything within my will and reach to make it work, to keep him happy with me. I did everything, some things I will never do again in my life. Its crazy how young I was but yet mature to handle what I thought I could handle. Looking back I wouldn’t done half the shit I did to keep the relationship alive.
I’m better though now, I know who I am and what I want. I thank God for not letting be stuck in my old ways. I’m so happy I’m not stuck on him like many other girls are. I don’t feel the need to hit him up when I’m drunk which is great.
In my last relationship I didn’t leave anything for me, I couldn’t walk away because my heart was in it 110%. In this relationship he makes me happy, take cares of business but I’m not for losing myself either. I can walk away (a bad thing maybe). But I believe every woman should keep some part of her reserve. I don’t have a fort over my heart but there’s a shield. Even my man knows if he isn’t on it someone else will be. I’m content though, he wanted two years for me so I’m giving this a chance, we’ll see :D
The Other Side of the Pillow